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You bend to wanting to trust someone so desperately and you find it impossible to do so and when that happens you break. It hurts to admit the truth, I find myself alone and without words to express how I feel and in that solitude I"m at a loss for words and without equal to the task of even moderately understanding how I feel.

I like this page cause it doesn't talk back, it lets me free my thoughts and doesn't judge or offer advice but listens, attentively and with devout attention. As I grew up I always felt this hole deep inside of me, like a living entity fixed in my ribcage and forever empty. That space was filled at one time now it's empty again, I can feel it once more. More then that I feel as though pieces of me have been chipped away, lost, dispersed by the winds of time. Those pieces were parts of my innocence and without them I feel barren and dirty.

Sometimes the thought of you is an ach deep in my chest, a pain that catches my breath and holds it captive. A feeling of loss and a torment that I cannot escape without touching you or hearing your voice, things I'll likely never experience again. I see your name everywhere, and strangers hold your gaze and appearance for brief seconds causing my heart to skip a beat, until I realize it's not you and then I am filled with memories and a deep longing. I miss missing you openly, I hate the thought of you with another woman even more so when I know she's not what your heart desires nor does she bring you the happiness you deserve. What I wouldn